From the recording Marry Me Once
Credits:
Kristen Rae Bowden: Vocals, Piano
Joe Lawlor: Guitars
Tevis Marshall: Organ
Nate Brown: Drums
Dane Alderson: Bass
Recorded at Haunted Hollow Studio in Charlottesville, VA
Engineered by Rob Evans
Additional Engineering by Kristen Rae Bowden and Joe Lawlor
Mixed by Wayne Pooley
Mastered by Dave Collins
Lyrics
You don’t have to marry me once
Just to get me to notice
It’s not like you wanted it to be
You don’t have to carry me far
Just to get me to see who you are
My feet are for walking and it makes me feel free
It’s taken a long road
To feel like I can stand alone
And when I carry a heavy load
All I think about is going home
And I know you mean it
But what can I say
I’m afraid of being needed
And of losing my own way
So you’re not going to marry me once
Just to say it’s forever
That’s not how forever happens to be
You’re not gonna carry me across
Some imaginary water
‘Cause that sea that you’re seeing I simply don’t see
I know I’m conflicted
But at least I know what I can do
I’m in the wave swimming with it
And you gotta swim on your own too
Here I am for the first time
A captain all my own
So in love with my own mind
And it feels like going home
I used to want someone to marry me once
Just to get me to notice
It’s not like I wanted it to be
I would’ve wanted you to carry me across
Some imaginary water
But back then no one offered, such sweet irony
And it’s taken a long road
To feel like I can stand alone
And when I carry a heavy load
All I can think about is going home
And I know you mean it
But what can I say
I’m afraid of being needed
And of losing my own way
So you’re not gonna marry me once
Just to say it’s forever